First of all, Thank you soo much for all your continued love and prayers. I still really really need it. Sunday was Trent’s 33rd Birthday. There are so many “first’s” right now in my life without Trent. Today I walked into my home after running an errand and I just stopped at the door…I couldn’t go any further. I felt the tears running down my face as I was trying to catch my breath. It was one more moment of realizing that Trent himself won’t ever be inside these doors waiting for me to walk in again. I was starting to feel like I was going to fall apart and all of the sudden I spoke out loud to myself, “Tammy, You’re OK!

I know many of you are wondering how I’m doing and how to pray for me, so I thought I would take just a moment this morning to put my heart down on paper.

First of all, Thank you soo much for all your love and prayers, cards, letters, emails, flowers, food, books and financial gifts in Trent’s honor. I can’t begin to express to you just how deeply this has affected my life!

There are days when I can’t even breath…when the tears never stop, and I feel my life slipping away. It’s during that time when I take every ounce of faith that I have and lift up my eyes towards Heaven to allow the Lord to pick me up out of this dark pit in my life.

On our life’s journey we’ll all face many different situations, experiences and relationships. Sometimes we have gains, and we laugh. Sometimes we have losses, and we cry. Sometimes our hearts are broken, and we isolate. Sometimes our song is played, and we celebrate. Sometimes we really blow it, and we sink. Sometimes we get it right, and we smile.